Monday, June 25, 2012

Parenting ups and downs...



Sometimes being someone's "parent" just scares the crap out of me.  How or why did God decide that I was ready to become a parent?  Some days I feel like I could handle 10 kids..some days I want to dart out the door with the first whine of the day....most days I feel like the three I have are just enough to NOT push me over the edge.

 Let's start with the UPS:

1.  I get to be called "mommy"  or "mom" or "mama" or "MOOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMM"!

2.  I have been entrusted to raise the three most perfect little people...

3.  I get to share a bowl of cereal with Finn...he is just the perfect kid to share a bowl of cereal with.

4.  I get to snuggle and have a conversation with Olivia.  She asks AMAZING questions and comes up with AMAZING answers.

5. I get to chase and tickle Wyatt....but even more...I get to hear him giggle.  :-)

6.  I get to be a child all over again...( seriously, one of the best parts of being a parent).

Now the DOWNs:

1.  Discipline :-(

2.  Losing my temper

3. Yelling

4. Feeling out of control ( this is the worst one I think)

5. Discipline ( yes, yes, I know it's good for them...but enforcing rules BLOWS!)

6. Feeling like I'm failing...:-(

7. Poop, throw-up, and when kids do that "I'm gonna spit out this food to piss you off " bit....

8.  Losing my temper. ( see the pattern here?)

Now I know that most parents go through this but I am trying sooooooooo hard to find a way out of the anger that comes when either something happens that I can't control or I just can't find a constructive way to work my way out of a parenting problem.

I deeply admire all the parents out there that are calm all the time...and they do exist, I have seen them in the parks, grocery stores, etc...maybe when they get home they lose it or something.  hahaha!

Anyway, I guess I just feel so tired a lot of the time and my patience just isn't what it should be.

Wah- wah- wah!  Right?

Every day is a new day...a new start ...and a new chance to make something better...I gotta keep going with that...:-)

xoxox


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