....about being a mom.
i don't think I ever knew or cared to know how hard this job would be. Some days ( or maybe like last week, the WHOLE week), I pretty much felt like walking out the door. Is that shocking? Well, if you are a mom, you a probably saying , "Nope, I felt like that last month, or last week, or yesterday. ". I felt inadequate, overwhelmed, and well, just plain mean. And I know that the kids felt it. I know that they felt worn thin by my yelling and most times I saw that their faces were always hesitant as to what I might say and do next. sigh....but,
this week is so much better. Even though this week I have the sore throat ( that has been passed from family member to family member), i still feel better. Even though May gray is here and the days are perpetually cloudy sometimes all day long, i feel better. I think that sometimes God throws us mommies weeks or days like those to test us, to see if we can truly overcome obstacles.
i am thankful that my children are healthy. I am thankful that my husband is patient, and kind, and the most wonderful father to our children. I am thankful that we live in a safe town and have food on our table and clothes on our back. I'm pretty sure last week...I wouldn't have cared..:-)
and of course ...I would never walk out the door. :-)
xoxoxoxoxo
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