Dogpaddling

My lack of posting these last few months has brought me to realize that my life is really changing. Changing for the good?  I hope so...I find that a lot of days are spent washing dish after dish, folding shirt after shirt, giving time-out after time-out..but that's what i signed on for , right?  *sigh*.  Don't get me wrong, i am blessed, truly blessed...and writing a post like this , well, it kinda makes me feel*icky*.  There are so , so many people in the world that don't even come close to what I have, BUT, this is my blog therefore a little whining now and then can do a mommy some good.

So here I am ..feeling fat, kinda grumpy, and in real need of a good , long, nap.  ( there it is world.. i have put it out there. ) :-)

Not to mention it is raining today and we woke up this morning with a wet kitchen floor...( the roof is leaking again.) ...I think that it may be time for a new roof...another *sigh*.  That might feel good though, "stripping" off the old and laying a "new" roof down?  Too many metaphors i think...

I don't have any solutions for how to fix how I feel EXCEPT to not dwell to long it IT.  I think that moving forward and having a plan might be good ....but what is my plan?  I really don't know. 

Confused yet?  I know I am...

My saving grace is my husband.  companion. friend of friends...thank the LORD that he is beside me.  Who else would put up with me?  my craziness, my lack of housekeeping skills...*a-hem*.  

...These last few months I feel like I am 'barely" keeping my head above water...can't float and can't swim...maybe like dogpaddling..

Anyone else feel that way?????